Waiting for what?

Caminante, no hay puentes, se hace puentes al andar. Gloria E. Anzaldúa

I’ll be honest; I’m use to getting what I want all the time.  Sound a bit selfish?  Conceited?  Immature?  Well, yes, that is how it sounds, but let me explain.

Day after day, I work hard from the moment I wake up until I let my head fall upon my favorite pillow 16 hours later.  My parents have always told me to work hard because nothing in life will be handed to you, and believe me, nothing in my life has been handed to me.  I have spent countless hours on projects, at internships and working more than one job at a time to better myself.  I’m not use to hearing “no” because at the end of the day I do not only convince others of my abilities, but I strive to perfect them and I make sure that I am better than my competition.  I know I have not learned all that I need to live in this world, but I am aware of my weaknesses and am constantly working on turning those weaknesses into attributes that will push me over the top.

So, now that I am faced with an uncertain future, I feel lost.  I feel as if all of the work I have put in over the last four years in college are nothing.  I feel as if all of those words of encouragement from my parents over the past 22 years are lies.

As some of my closest friends are being offered their first full-time jobs before graduation.  I am waiting.

Waiting for a reply from the University of South Florida’s selection committee for entry into their Masters of Arts in Communications: Multimedia program.  Waiting to hear back from one of the 15 jobs I have applied for over the last two months.  Waiting.

Right now the only comfort I have is when I think remember that God has my back (only way I can word that feeling right now) and Ms. Anzaldua’s words.  I just have to keep moving during this time of waiting and build my own bridges.  Just have to move through this waiting room.

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  1. #1 by some may say i'm a dreamer on April 6, 2011 - 1:10 pm

    I got used to that too..until I graduated…I know exactly how you feel :/

    • #2 by Ash on April 6, 2011 - 1:44 pm

      I need to just learn to roll with the punches better. . .it’s getting so depressing though. On a related note. . .FSC needs a PR Writer. . .every time I search for jobs I find it and it just keeps following me. . .

  2. #3 by GirlMeetsBlog on April 11, 2011 - 5:15 pm

    I know exactly how you feel Ash. I’m in college about a year out from graduating and also studying communications. The only advice I can give you is to hang in there and to be positive. Best of luck in your endeavors!

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